The Greatest Love Of All

It is 8:45 pm on New Years Eve 2024 and Im sitting here reflecting upon what the greatest gift this year has brought me. I feel like one of the things I can really cherish is how far Ive come in deepening my self love. Im a professional model, dancer, actress, and writer. Im very good at what I do and Im also very successful. However like most people in my field when Im making money the money is wonderful, but when Im not, its a struggle and hustle for my next big check. The entertainment industry is a feast or famine type of landscape, and in my journey of self love Ive had to monitor how I respond to those unpredictable financial  struggles in how I feel about myself. Some of the best advice Ive gotten from one of my Islamic, Taurus mermaids, as well as from relationship expert Rori Raye, is to love myself unabashedly, wholeheartedly, passionately, and feverishly. To love those things about myself which are easy to love as well as those things that are a bit unsavory. They gave me the advice to make the love story I have with myself my most passionate romance For me, this has meant to change the way I respond to myself when Im in famine season in my career and finances. Its easy to love myself when Im taking first class flights to Paris, dancing for people like Beyonce and Debbie Allen, and staying in hotels like The Gaylord and Citizen M. But can I show myself the same love, compassion, adulation, and admiration whem Im broke, struggling, robbing Peter to pay Paul, and am experiencing uncertainty about where my next source of income is going to come from? Sometimes you have to ask yourself the hard questions, and this year I can honestly say Im happy with my answer. Im going to be honest with you. In terms of my financial situation, 2024 was a struggle, famine year. But the love I was still able to show myself was unmatched. I have come to see whether I have a thousand dollars in my bank account or ten dollars I am a very magical and extraordinary individual deserving of nothing but the best life has to offer. I am dope and amazing whether Im riding in a limo or riding public transportation. I am a Goddess that deserves all of the good life has to offer whether Im working with people like Tyler Perry whom Ive worked with in the past and If Im working at my local Victoria's Secret which I have also worked.  2024 taught me how to love myself as God loves me. A love that endures all the stages and phases of my life without changing in the midst of certain circumstances. 2024 taught me that I have so much to admire about myself regardless of my income and financial status. Im beautiful and amazing because I just I am and because of who I am. Not my bank account or resume or employment stituation but because I just fucking exist. Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all just the way Muva Whitney Houston taught us, and this is the gift 2024 brought me. I cannot wait to continue to unwrap this present in 2025 and beyond! Happy New Year Mermaids!