The Prototype

So let me tell you about me. In 2009 I fell in love so deep that if you held my heart up to your ear you would hear the ocean. It was one of the best years, summers, and situationships of my life. I eventually got my heart broken unfortunately, and it led to one of the most intense healing and learning processes of my life. i am still swirling from this whilrwind of  sex, love, lies, and passion. since then ive dated some incredible guys, but none of then have given me that incomparable feeling of wanting to be with someone that i can barely sleep at night. i just havent found that spark. i recently got back in touch with the guy who sends my soul bursting, and some things have changed. i dont know what the futue holds, but i refuse to forget what i deserve in the midst of  what i feel. Ive come to far in my personal journey of love to hype back. i know what it feels like to be treated on the level of my worth and as a Queen, and once you get used to that going back to anything less than that is out of the question. I realize that apart of my inability to completely let go is that i yearn for a feeling that i fear will never come again. no one has made me feel the way this man has made me feel. I have to stay in touch with reality though. my advice to any woman going through something similar is to remember that fear and love cant exist in the same place. if youre functioning from a place of fear then you are not leaving any room for love. how can there be love when there isnt any man in your life you may ask? Love isnt about being involved with one man. its about feeling the love from all men, the spirits, universe, ancestors, and God coming through and out of you.  i also try to remember that if this love with this guy is meant to be nothing real can be threatened. I have dreams in love just like i have dreams in any other part of my life. my ultimate goal is marriage and children. My grandmother has taught me the beauty of building a family. i refuse to give up on my dreams, and just like i am in every aspect of life i will boulder any obstacle that comes in my path until i am triumphant. To all of my ladies out there on their quest of finding the one i propose a toast. Touche. the journey continues...



i hope that hes the one. if not he is the prototype